How do I overcome Depression, when I am overcome with Depression?
I cannot think my way out of depression because it is an emotional issue, not a mental issue. I am too emotionally confused to think rationally.
I am overwhelmed with depression, when I am severely underwhelmed by life.
When I am severely underwhelmed by life, I become extremely emotionally depressed. When I am depressed, it is my emotional power that is depressed. When my emotional power is depressed, I am unable to think straight, I get very confused and I feel very lost and overwhelmed by what is happening to me in life. I feel very depressed by my suppressed emotional energy.
My emotional confusion causes me to feel mentally lost and when I lose my mental direction, I become easily confused.
Depression feels like I have fallen inadvertently into a large sinkhole. It is as though the ground has opened up and swallowed me whole. This deep hole is as deep as my depression. Climbing out of the hole is how I overcome depression. The hole is my ‘pit of despair’. The greater my despair, the deeper my pit and the more impossible it appears to be able to climb out. Knowing that it is possible to climb out, is the first step to overcoming depression.
To climb out of my pit of depression, I need an emotional ladder. Putting my foot on the ladder, I am on the first rung of my climb out of depression. I am present to the awareness that my emotional energy is absent. Climbing the ladder requires emotional energy that I do not presently have.
Depression is not something that has happened to me, so nothing is going to happen to me, to overcome my depression. I am required to climb the ladder by my own endeavour, with my own emotional power. Nobody can give me enough emotional energy to climb out of my depression. Resonating with me in the bottom of my negative emotional pit, may be sympathetic but it will not help me climb out.
Depression is caused by my absence of mental direction, disaffecting & disconnecting my emotional clarity. I feel mentally confused, when I am actually emotionally confused, by being emotionally absent. Mental direction and emotional clarity are how I overcome the depression of being emotionally confused, mentally lost and physically frustrated. Being in the depths of emotional despair is very physically frustrating, as I am blocked in whatever mental direction I choose to go. At the bottom of my pit, the only way is up.
Getting high on drugs will not get me physically out of my pit. When the drugs wear off; the frustration of being low in energy, remains. The higher I get on drugs, the deeper my depression becomes.
Overcoming the confusion of low energy, requires emotional clarity. Overcoming the feeling of being lost, requires mental direction. Overcoming the physical experience of frustration, requires Presence. Becoming aware of the presence of my negative emotional state of being, allows me to change my emotional state of being; one rung at a time. As I climb out of my depression, one emotional state of being at a time, my power becomes more positive and my direction becomes clearer.
Negative power is called anger, intolerance & frustration. I express my physical frustration as either mental intolerance or emotional anger. Tolerating my anger allows me to climb out of depression with patience. Anger is intense impatience. Being present allows patience to flow.
Shifting emotionally from anger, to impatience, to patience, empowers my climb out of depression. I am required to be patient to have enough emotional energy not to get angry. With enough patience, I am able to become aware of the tolerations that I am tolerating, which are an intolerable drain on my emotional energy and causing it to be depressed.
Emotional anger, caused by mental tolerations, has a frustrating physical effect. The presence of anger is a reaction to the frustration of an intolerable depression and it is also the way out of my pit of despair. Controlling anger with patience allows the mental clarity of a tolerable direction out of depression.
Healthy patience is preferable to being a sick patient with depression. Expressing controlled anger allows it to become controlled impatience and then controlled patience, which allows the present moment to be tolerable. Once my present moment is tolerable, I can learn to accept my present life with clarity & direction.
The presence of clarity allows the cloud of confusion to disperse and clear direction to be positively present. When I am lost in depression, it feels like my time is up when it is actually my direction that is up. As I climb up out of depression, I gain more & more clarity & presence. The more present I become the clearer life presents itself to me and the less lost I feel.
As I climb out of depression, through anger, impatience & intolerance; learning to tolerate my impatience with presence, I begin to see my direction with clarity, as I experience rising up out of my depressingly negative perspective of life, with a new positive perception of who I consciously choose to be.