My Insane Controller is my sub-conscious Id.
It is deemed to be insane when it reacts extremely irrationally.
The id panics when emotional energy becomes very low.
Panic attacks are an irrational effect of a rational cause.
When facing an intense energy drain, the id panics & over-reacts in an irrational way to restore emotional balance.
Emotional balance requires balanced emotional energy.
To regain emotional energy, the id creates a drama to control other people and gain their emotional support.
My Insane Controller assumes the role of either a Poor Me or an Intimidator.
As a poor me, the id gains emotional support through sympathy.
The Id receives sympathy relative to the degree of physical or mental illness being suffered.
Insanely, the id sees illness as being emotionally beneficial when it elicits sympathy from others.
When sympathy is not forthcoming, the id resorts to intimidation & threats to secure the energy that it needs.
Treating the id with apathy will be seen as intimidation by an intimidator.
The insane controller is not thinking rationally.
The more emotionally needy the id becomes, the more insane the control drama that it creates for its Self.
The insane controller refuses to be controlled.
It will only respond to compassion & empathy.